Saturday, November 03, 2012

anitha

yesterday i was posted with four students in the admissions room at the hospital. this is where every woman comes through - regardless of whether she is a gynaec case, in labour or having postpartum difficulties...
i was sitting with a madame** talking about the commonality of consanguinity, when a man calmly walked in the double doors gripping a hankerchief between his hands nervously. He had been caught in the uncommon monsoon rains of the day and his face told a story of a hopeless husband looking for someone, anyone who may be able to help his wife.
we followed him out to an ambulance* and we helped in the struggle to shift the woman onto a gurney. We rolled her into the hsopital with her family trying to explain what the case was. We caught that the baby had died and that she was being referred from another hospital because of a heart condition.
Once we had her settled, her male family was shooed out and her sister was able to accompany her. The woman, we will call her Anitha, grabbed her husband with the same desperation he first showed and begged him to stay. I witnessed a moment that reminded me of Jesus - he did what he didn't want to do, knowing it would be best for her care, he left her. If the family disobeys the hospital staff the implication is the quality of the woman's health care, as the staff will not tend to her until there is only one attendant. 
Anitha's baby had died inside of her, she was struggling to breathe with a heart condition that had just been diagnosed the day before, she complained of pains in her chest, she was writhing in discomfort as she could not get enough oxygen.
We monitored her condition for 3 hours... knowing that it did not look good. Her pulse rate went up to 148, respirations were 52. She was showing signs of shock with her cold, clammy skin and unheard blood pressure.  Multiple Madames attended to her and showed faces of "its late in the game".
For hours we stayed with Anitha - knowing she needed a ventilator, blood, a c-section... but what of these things were available and was her condition stable enough for them?

We transferred her to another ward, and after the intense 4 hours we decided to take a seat in the canteen. When we came back from lunch, helped with the shift changeover and then when to check on Anitha. We came into the ward to find her body covered and her family coming in, saying their good-byes.

Anitha was one of the 1,300 women that die everyday due to pregnancy related conditions.


*people can hire an ambulance to transport their family but it is not necessarily equipped for emergency
 **OBGYN

Sunday, October 21, 2012

india.

here i am once again.
third time around and what is happening?
well - it feels comfortable. haha... i think i could live here.
there is the occasional stomach upset and burning as much on the way out as on the way in, but for the most part, the initial shock of life in india isn't very shocking anymore.

communication in india is comprised of shouting, corrections and blunt comments (this is all very subjective). it is a shock to my positive system, but somehow the collective months of life under this communication have allowed an adjustment. it is only a matter of time before i start calling people fat.


some indian fun-ness and my response...
eating with my hand - you have never tasted such delicious food.
your left hand is dirty - "don't touch me with that hand!" "please, excuse my left hand."
how much do you want me to pay? "yeighty rupees madame" - 8 = yeight and a = yay
you are looking very nice in your indian suit! - aside from the scarf that expands my worldview on what scarves are for - indian punjabis seem too comfortable to be be true - don't worry, the sari takes the cake for the discomfort.


and onward to the hospital we go, day in and day out with jesus at the centre.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

hi guys.

rachel asked me to post last week and, well, i threw a bit of a hissy fit - thinking no one read this blog except her and my dad... and since i talk to both of them on a regular basis it felt like, "why write?"

after further examination i thought, do i ever write for a specific person? na.
do i ever send my updates for a response? na.

i think it took having a couple moments to think last week after talking my mom. aren't moms the best? and i thought - hey, even if only a couple people read them, ok. its not about who is reading them its that the info is there and available...

so here i am. it is time again to gear up to push for finances. again i have been thinking of the faithfulness of God... his faithfulness even shines in the way that he has me trust him for finances. what ends up happening is a much greater dependency on him through prayer and trusting the strategies that he gives me are exactly what i need. its all about relationship... and that comes through hearing his voice...
i love hearing his voice.


here is a picture from last week. boy i like teaching.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

our base dedication...including photos of newly completed property.



here is the worship centre.



before we entered the property our base leadership team washed all of our feet.



my lovely friends, sporting the royal priesthood sashes.



here is the staircase which will take you to all three floors...



annointing the property...you can see the train is the distance.



here you can see the "worship centre"...a lot of windows for all the onlookers to observe.




here is the front door...



some admirable friends from india. they serve the hiv/aids victims of india and we have done ministry together for several years. they were in perth for the dedication night of our base.



here is our sign! isn't it slick? I like it. I'm proud of it.



from the footpath that leads to claisebrook train station! you can see the whole of the property from this shot.

Monday, March 05, 2012

how do i get there?

feeling a bit funny tonight, almost giddy.

lately though, i have been thinking, what once filled my days was creating a schedule that 18 people's "live depended on", or walking a student through a difficult delivery that resulted in a way neither of us had ever hoped for or chatting when someone feels like they just have not been hearing from God...and now...it looks a tad bit different...
so where do you go with it? having been asked a couple of times...what are you doing now? has brought me down this road of...
am i still the same person if i am in the off season?
this issue of WHO AM I?
i am just one voice of a resounding choir humming this same tune.

i am not at identity crisis phase...but i ask this age old question recognizing that until we know the answer...we seem to wrestle with different branches of this nasty root of confusion. jesus knew where he came from, where he was and where he was going...
he knew himself.
i think i get this weird fear of becoming super insular and i digress from learning my own patterns.
but then knowing my identity relates to how i love others, because we are to love others as we love our self...and do we really love unless we KNOW. hmm not sure.
and how much more confidently can i give when i know myself... its like, i don't need anymore of me because i know myself, and i know i don't need anymore- so i can give that much away...

thoughtful.
so, who am i?

discovering.

Thursday, February 02, 2012

hit the ground scrubbing.

our beautiful base located in Perth, Australia has been trusting the L*rd for a property to own for years, since before I was even born. Since I joined in 2008, we received land close to where we were leasing a property. Since October 2010 the building has been happening and today the gas is being installed and tomorrow the town of Vincent will walk through to give the yes or no.
In my head, this was all going to be over by the time I returned from all my outreach and holiday happenings. Early January it became clear that there were enough delays that I might actually be here for the move in.
This has meant for me that basically "all else" is done at a later date so that my energy is going towards cleaning and preparing the new property for move in. I am so excited to be a part of it!
What does this new property mean? We OWN land, IN the city. We are taking the land. This is our inheritance.
Why do we need to have a new property? This is where training is happening! We are taking the land here, so that we can train and send others to take the land in other nations!

Trust me, it is so beautiful, I am just in awe of G*d's provision for us! Pictures to follow.

Friday, January 20, 2012

snowmageddon.

i am in seattle right now. my older sister has lent me her bed, so kind. that means i have my own room, so lonely. our weiner dog tootsie is dependent on human body heat and is whining at the door to get out so that she can climb into mom and dad's memory foam, she is hardly a dog, rather a younger sister.
dad has been working 40 hour shifts and then sleeping 8 hours since Sunday night. they are calling this "snowmageddon". its kind of driving me crazy and making me have way too many bruce willis flashes in my head. the snow is almost up to our white picket fence, my family is one of few american familieis that actually has a white picket fence. the only time i can remember snow like this is when I was in the third grade and we had several days off school and then a major intersection near our house flooded because of all the aftermath drainage. everyone has had school off all week. that means at all hours someone is cooking in the kitchen, the dishwasher is constanlty full (and we rationalize against handwashing because it saves water) and i have coffee stomach (which leads to coffee bowels).
i feel underly productive. what is this drive in me to produce in order to feel legitamized to rest? perhaps the cold is seeping through the windows and numbing me.
i have read a lot of birth stories. a lot.
i just finished "baby catcher"-hilarious read.
then i started "spiritual midwifery", written by ina may gaskin, an iconic us midwife. they use words like "psychadelic", "telepathic" and "far out" to describe birth in her days. she gives good tips though for us up and coming midwives.

i am worried about this generation, our screen addiction. i feel shocked by it when i come home because internet and screens are way more accessible and cheap.
what is becoming of our next generation? socially awkward? visually impaired? bored by anything that's not "touchable"?

at TGIFriday's you can get an entree and a dessert or appetizer for $10. wow that is so cheap! at jack in the box you can get a medium fry, drink, 1/4 lb beef burger and 2 tacos for 4.29.
f.o.o.d.i.s.s.o.c.h.e.a.p.

my family made eggs benedict on sunday and biscuits and gravy today. so good. only the eggs benedict took about 3.5 hours from start to finish. i will blame that on the hash browns and the dirty dishwasher, not my lack of skill. other bummer was dad and pat missing it...then mom tried to recreate when they got home. she heated up the hollondaise sauce...in the microwave...oops, scrambled lemons?

most of my plans for the week were scattered and canceled. except for dinner with the Trimbles. I like families, a lot. especially this one.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

friday it is.

this friday. 6:30 pm-9ish

a little catch up, relaxed hang out, let's be together event.

see a bit of what's been happening through my eyes in 2011.

so, stop by for a bit, all are welcome.

at the dinneen house.
12127 36th Drive SE
Everett

friday it is.

this friday. 6:30 pm-9ish

a little catch up, relaxed hang out, let's be together event.

see a bit of what's been happening through my eyes in 2011.

so, stop by for a bit, all are welcome.

at the dinneen house.
12127 36th Drive SE
Everett